Picking up the Pieces

So I didn't get any topics that people wanted me to cover and I haven't written anything in quite sometime so I've decided to just write a little ditty about random stuff.  I haven't written anything because of some blessings and some really horrible trials. I've been battling an infection for 4 months now and it's still an on-going issue. I'm hoping that this will be officially departing me soon. Along with this I've been horribly depressed and honestly haven't been doing anything. It's difficult for me to cope when I feel like crap so I'm pushing through and hoping to come out on the other side victorious.

As for my blessings, I was blessed to have Liam here for two weeks and it was amazing to have him with me. My aunt in South Carolina bought us Engagement photos, which turned out amazing!!! Here is a sample:

We got a lot of wedding planning (as much as we can) done and we got to be together like a real couple for a while. Sadly he had to leave and now I'm picking up the pieces and twiddling my thumbs till Feburary when I see him again in England. One other blessing is that I am now currently a freelance writer at Rochester Women Magazine and will be having my first piece published in a couple of weeks. Gotta be greatful for the little things I guess.

It's been a hard couple of months, nothing seems to go right. Someday I feel like I'm ready to just give up and live out my days as manic depressive lonely writer. On those days it always seems like Liam has the biggest smile and the warmest heart. He is always there to tip me back up and help me feel more positive. I guess the worst part for me is knowing that with the holidays rapidly approaching, this is the first and last time I am going to be alone for Christmas and New Years. Like I said before, thankfully, this is the last time I will ever have to be alone for the holidays. I can't wait till Liam and I can actually open our presents together and spend Christmas morning together. Oddly enough this Halloween season has been particularly difficult because of the fact that there have been so many parties to go to with my friends and I am going to them alone, for the first time in years. It really makes you wish that someone was there with you. Someone to hold your hand when there is a lull in the coversation and someone to drive home with at night. It sucks.
While this dilemma still is daunting I'm trying to make light of it by saying that with every lonely holiday that passes I am that much closer to be with Liam in Feburuary. We're almost down to less than 3 months! I can't believe it's been a month or so since he was here.

Even though a lot of days are hard and that my life seems to be on the rampage to eat me alive, Liam always manages to make it worth fighting back and the one thing I try to remember is that in 6 months I will never have to be without Liam again. I can't wait to be his wife.

Keep your head up guys! Just remember it's not forever!

<3 Amazzle